Never Let Me Go...

Yesterday I was really struggling with loneliness, stress, and confusion. The stress came from realizing that I had MUCH MORE homework to do than I had originally thought, not exactly something you want to hear. Good to know, though I guess.
The loneliness and confusion kind of went hand in hand, because I don't feel like anyone really knows me as who I am. Everyone has some idea of their own, but God is the only one who truly gets who I am, and who I'm trying to be. It can be kind of frustrating when I see people with best friends that seem to understand them, when I feel like I don't have any great relationships like that. That is just how I felt anyways... Yesterday had been a pretty good day overall, but the night was rough.

Through the hard times, I've found that God always provides. He knows how much we can handle, and what will turn us back to Him. In my case, last night I was looking through the bag I carry along all the time when I found a personal psalm/love letter that I had written to God last year, that applied perfectly to my situation. I had already prayed some about my situation, but I hadn't let His peace affect me at all and wasn't fully looking or expecting God's help.

However, God used my past words to break through to me last night, because I wouldn't turn to his. I started crying when I read it, but it reminded me of God's greatness, and how He has never let me down. I really needed to hear that.


Psalm:
You alone know the place I should turn.
You are my place of refuge.
You are all I really want in life.

You've always been there for me,
even when I didn't understand,
When I was too proud to give in.
You were there for me, and are holding me now.
I'm scared by myself, but I know that You will guide me.

Help me, lead me, because I can't do this myself.
When I don't know what I'm doing anymore,
You pull me back to you,
with love clear like a starry night sky,
bright like the sunset over the lake,
and always at the right time when I need you the most.
You remind me that You have always loved me.