Not Alone

Lately I've really been struggling with loneliness and self worth. When I get distracted from who I am in Christ, and simply don't understand how he could love me so much, I really feel like nothing. I am definitley still struggling with this, and it isn't easy, but I am so glad that I have a God that doesn't give up on me.


God reminds me in small ways that He still loves and wants me through small inspirations. In the past couple of days, two different people have introduced themselves to me and expressed interest in my life, that I had seen around before but never really gotten to know. Countless others have asked me how I'm doing etc... and these people remind me that they, and ultimately God does care.

Another instance of this occurred last night when one of my friends on my hall was asking me what was up, and  pressuring me to talk. Although, I wouldn't confess what was going on, knowing that she cared was BIG. It is hard for me to open up with people and admit that I am struggling, because I feel like I shouldn't be, or that it makes me weak. However, I am weak. I'm just to scared to show it.

Today God touched me through reading of his word. I was looking through my bible for a verse that I could incorporate into a drawing that I was making for the friend that was talking to me last night. When I began flipping through my bible, however, I came upon verse after verse about how God is  our refuge, and strength and that we need to rely on Him. I started sobbing at my desk. I wasn't looking for God, but he reached out to me anyways.

As I said before, I'm definitely still struggling with this, and if you're reading this, please pray for me. God is always there with us, and we are never alone.