Don't Want To Sleep

Right now I really don't want to go to sleep because I know that tomorrow is one day closer to leaving my friends, family, and those I love in general. I hate goodbyes.

I recently said goodbye to my boyfriend, we broke up for college for a couple different reasons. It was really hard, and seeing him and not being with him hurts incredibly much more than I thought it would. It doesn't feel fair, and I have no right to complain, because it was my idea, and I still think it's the right thing to do. But it hurts, because we were close, and it hurts even more knowing that I hurt him. We're still friends, but its different. I learned a lot through our relationship, and I don't think it was a waste of time, but I also don't think he's the one.

I think college will change things in general. I'm looking forward to growing in my relationship with God. I feel kind of broken and scared right now though. I know I have people to support me. I even found some encouraging friends on Tumblr, that I have never met, but they say they'll be praying for me. I hope they meant it.

God is SO amazing. I'm glad that He never gives up on me, even when I feel like I've been so far from Him. Thank you Father.