A Personal Psalm- Who do You see?

When You look at me, what do you see?
Do You see all the good things I've done?
Or how many times I've failed you and came
whimpering back to you later?
Do you see all the times I've strayed from You,
When You have always been all that I needed?
Do you see all the things I've messed up?
Do you see me like I see me?
If so, If You see everything that I am- How can you still love me?
How can You love me, when I don't?

Crying for help and giving you everything that hot summer night covered in sweat, dirt and my own tears...trying to stifle them lying on the floor of that beautiful tent as I realized just how far I'd strayed.

Everything is different now. But do you still see the me I see in the mirror? Or the person you're making me to be? When You look at me, what do you see? Do you see me, or do you see your son?

God, You were guiding me, help me and don't leave. I need you now just as much as I always have. Life has been getting kind of crazy and hectic; be my strength through these times and bring better times to come.
Refine me, as fire refines gold. Make me purer into the masterpiece you imagined.